I don't want to live for myself
I am not good at it and life isn't
meant to be that way either, but

it is necessary: my body
is having a hard time

and wants to be indulged
to be indulged more
more than I know

that is wise; my mind
just needs rest

no in-depth thoughts
only practical concerns
taking care of myself

and only if possible
also of others, my love

otherwise I am not
worth anything, not
who I want and hope

to be: healthy
enough for happily ever after