I can do anything to myself
get me stuck in dilemmas
ponder myself sick, activate me
or do nothing and wait
alternately on the couch, my bed
or hanging in the garden
between oak and lime
I can worry
about my health
and you, endlessly
make considerations
and decisions
At least, if that is true
because thinking is re-
flecting, chasing after
the events, telling myself
that I have control over myself
that I can make plans
about my work and my life
with you, now that everything changes
and yet later will turn out
to have stayed almost the same
but then without this job
and without you, only